WARNING: SEVERE TEENAGE DRAMA

WARNING: SEVERE TEENAGE DRAMA

WARNING: SEVERE TEENAGE DRAMA

WARNING: SEVERE TEENAGE DRAMA

you’ll meet someone, you’ll be friends then fall in love, then more deeply in love, then you’ll wake up to reality. It’s not really like the movies at all.

I’ve been in a relationship for almost a year and a half with the same guy. “Yung feeling na sana kayo na” yun yung na feel ko nung time na yun. It’s like magic. Minsan magkakaron ng away. Magkakagalit kayo. You may experience many break ups na hindi naman natutuloy kasi you’re still holding on. Magiging ok ulit. Normal lang naman daw talaga yun. You’ll eventually get used to it. Then mafefeel mo na kayo na nga talaga siguro. Childish? maybe pero sino ba naman ang magseseryoso na hindi papasok sa utak yung ganun? duh… then eventually one of you will get tired, maybe busy o find something more worthy… YES! SOMETHING! THING!… 

That happened… yung somehow mababawasan na yung dati. Hindi na balanse. Yung inaassume mong promise na “aayusin natin to together”, naging drawing na lang. Hindi mo alam kung ano nangyare. Bigla na lang ganun. Yung dinaig mo pa yung may ketong kung layuan ka. Partida, wala pa yang iba…(siguro?) Sasabihin nya sa’yong magfocus ka sa pag aaral at isang tabi mo muna s’ya… BULL CRAP! partners kayo! you should work together! Kahit onting paramdam lang na may spark pa o kaya naman at least ipaalam niya lang sa’yo na nnag-eexist pa s’ya. YUng dinaig mo pa ang sanggol sa pagtatama n’ya sa’yo kahit feeling mo wala ka namang ginawang mali pero at the end of the day, you’ll just pretend na ok lang. At the end of the day ang gusto mo pa ring mangyare e maging maayos yung lahat. Sayang naman naman kasi lahat ng effort mo. Yung dinefend mo s’ya sa parents mo. Yung at least once a week bibisitahin mo s’ya sa bahay nila, makita lang s’ya. Yung effort na kahit mapuyat ka, makausap mo lang s’ya. Kahit handa kang i-budget yung 24hrs mo para mag-aral, maging anak, maging ate, magliwaliw at di pa rin s’ya tanggalin sa sistema mo, parang wala pa din…. huhu bigte.